Monday, September 20, 2010

Memories - Moments

Joining into a new college I had high anxieties. Anxiety was not of how I will fair in studies after all these years of rest to that side of the brain or even of how a bit younger generation will accept me. But strangely and stupidly of loosing out of memories, past moments. The beautiful moments I treasure so much and dont want to let go of.
After so many years past school life I have couple of friends, very good friends in contact of. Whenever we meet, we talk of past, 95% of the time I absolutely have no memory of those times. I don't know why but I just cant recollect either a face or a day or even something I did myself. I cant even when they narrate the whole incident. Earlier I used to try hard to reconnect but now I know its just hopeless.
College life... so much much and much of good memories. I had a theory that I lost my school memory coz those slots were occupied by college memories. I feared so much that same will happen again and I didnt want that.
But just two months into the course I realized, things were not actually being lost. Most of the times, am reminded of past coz of something happening in present. Its like having Dejavu. 
Just this week we learnt in Psychology, there could be decay of memory coz of overwriting and with time. My theory was right. May be it will happen eventually, again. I would not remember the College days.
Thus I have come to the conclusion that since anyways things are gonna go, so why fear and let the get the present affected.
And now am having good times and moments to treasure and lose again :D
There were also another theory "more the decay better the memory" :D

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