QuEstion of ChoicEs

How does it feel to be out of the rehabilitation? Have you completely got rid of your addiction?
For me it has been a miracle. Nobody ever thought I could addict to drugs and I am sure no one ever expected me to get out of it. But I have and I am thankful to no one else than my darling fiancé who has stood by me through the down hill ride.
Are you alright?
Ya! I am. Don’t worry it’s just the stress. I guess the partying is giving me hard time. But I am OK. You carry on. Common…
Hey, I thought you are out of the league. How are you Mr.? Once you are in, can’t leave, huh?
No… I … I was just passing by, thought I will say ‘hi’ to you guys. I don’t want anything.
How did these packets come here? Tell me. After all that, how did these get here?
I couldn’t, it was hard but I didn’t take them. They forced me, I am surely not taking them. It was a mistake, forgive me dear. I am never going back.
You promised me … I can’t believe this. How could you do it?
I cant, I can’t do without it. I promise I will not overdo it. I need it. Just a bit, it won’t even be a dose, just the smell of it. Please!
You are back to the same place. I can’t take it anymore. You have to decide, whether you want me here or not?
You can’t take it anymore, huh! You don’t understand. You never can. Just stop pushing me and get out of my life.
This is the end Son. You don’t have anything to ask, do you?
I made all the wrong choices, didn’t I?

wide AWAKE

I love watching movies and I watch a lot of them. The place for them in my life is that of a friend who boosts me up when I am down, who gives me company when I am bored and alone, a partner who is there just for being there. They help me get inspired, in giving answers, in getting a way out I have been waiting for, most of the time just to chill out.
This week has been very dull. After full two months of slogging with work, activities and creativity, I sat at office and home doing no specific thing, just doing the routine stuff that I could do with no much pressure on my heart and brain. I am not sad, hurt or weeping the earth down. I just don’t feel like it.
Going with the stride of passing time watching movies, I woke up early today to book the remote in my hand for the day. The first movie, was the ‘Air Buddies’, got nothing much. The next one was ‘Wide Awake’. It was about a boy who looses his grandpa, whom he is very much attached to. He plans to go on a mission to find God, to make sure, God is taking good care of his grandpa. The movie had been put together so nicely and softly, the thought just slides into your mind. The movie inspires you to believe in the omnipresent, omnipotent image of the God with no specific religion highlighted. You don’t need to see Him to know He cares for you and for your loved ones.
So many times you keep searching for things and they come to you from something you never imagine. I am not an atheist. Infact I truly am a believer of God being omnipresent. I don't follow any particular religion. I don’t believe you need to follow the laid rules of any religion to be believing in God, though attimes they do help to discipline and channelize our beliefs.
The refreshment of this thought through this movie today early morning has given me back the energy I had lost in last few days. I don't know how, but surprisingly it has.
It’s important to keep believing in God, that He is there! And for those who don’t believe in the word “God” atleast believe in the omnipresence of a force that brings into your life the sorrows and after that the much awaited happiness.